There is this numbness inside my head
It feels like there is none inside!
Feelings feel intense and weird –
And the outside world a mystery!

When I walk, it’s mechanical
When I sit it’s forced!
I can wander off to galaxies,
When I am just being me!

I prefer lonesome more
But I am scared of loneliness!
I want to laugh more but-
Curving lips waters my eyes!

It feels mundane and sad
It feels intricate and mad!
It is confusing and amusing
And nothing makes sense!

Smiling is exhausting and
Laughing hurts so much!
Joking is tiring and
Having fun is impossible!

My eyes are burning
My soul is parched!
I want to wake up
But I never slept!

It’s just this numbness in my head,
It feels like there is none inside!
Feelings feel intense and dark
And the outside world a mystery!